The Ways of Today
Life is a giant courting ritual, an act to find your “pairing”
Where outside appearances flourish, and the inside is left behind
But then what?
You look, sound and smell your best in hopes that someone, just anyone will pick you
For at least long enough to not feel so alone
Is that not how the game goes, with no regards to feelings? Right!
In this game there are no feeling, at least not at first, not in the beginning, never on purpose
It is a great big superficial dance that I do not want to be a part of
I don’t want to be gamed, or smooth talked, I don’t need your obsessive compliments
Or your sad attempts to get me to go somewhere with you.
Because we both know this isn’t real, I want real, real is what I do need.
But then what?
The chances of meeting someone who enhances and understands you in the same
Productive way that you do them is so slim
To feel and truly be peacefully at one with another soul
To see yourself so you are able to be yourself, this is real, this is perfect
the perfect relationship that works seamlessly, effortlessly, truthfully
That grows and changes together, and helps one another through all the imperfections of the world.
But today everyone wants to play around, thinking of now and forgetting forever
So I will be over here, working on myself, by myself.
Forced to deal with fears of unrealistic expectations
I’ll sit and wait and see what happens
...But then what?