The Way I Am
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Why am I the way I am?
My life was one not many could stand
Live in fear; always looming danger
A body hits the wall, you’re in your own house a stranger
Your body goes rigid when you hear the bottle break
So many nights all you could do was cry and shake
Of three children, you’re the golden one
Accompanied by a stray daughter and a troublemaking son
Always told you are the one who will be great
When you don’t succeed, all you feel for yourself is hate
Medical bill cost so much, had to hid your pain
Each day trying to convince the world that you are not insane
Trying so hard to stay on the right path
Terrified of straying and feeling your mother’s wrath
She’s been through so much, you don’t want to add
It would kill her inside to know you’re always sad
Every time you open up, your heart gets broke again
Put up such a wall so no one can get in
There’s only one person who ever brought it down
But he ran away, left you lying helpless on the ground
People say they’ll never let you fall
But no one seems to care enough to stick around through it all
You feel so worthless, nothing you do is right
It seems the real you only comes out at night
So many opportunities, a chance for something new
Gladly try it all, this new lifestyle appeals to you
Drinking everything in sight, try to hide the hurt
Smoke it all away, though it only makes things worse
That is who I am, who are you to judge?
You can try to change me, but I know that I won’t budge