drunk or sober it was always you
there is a lonely hum in my brain where your name used to be
i will drown myself to silence in
it if i do not get some peace and quiet soon
i would slit my throat in the hope that every word
that i could never say to you would come spilling out
and you could finally read the riddles of my love
my words could just be stains on a bathroom floor
maybe then would you finally understand
all i have is a whisper
i cannot look at you anymore
but i cannot wash you away from my mind either
i am mad at you,
for what you did to me.
but i am mad at myself too
i should have fought harder for you
i am lying to myself just to make this bearable
i am lying to myself thinking
you were ever what i needed
it is such a shame that we
look up at the same sky
and see such different things.
it has been a while.
i miss you
i am forgetting your voice
and i am going crazy trying to remember
you just saying my name
it is midnight and i am thinking of your lips against mine
while you are probably fucking her
i need to learn to stay away from lonely places
i need to learn to stay away from you
i hope one day i honestly believe
that i wasted all my time on you.