why cant i be fine by myself 

 

without the validation 

fostered love

from temporary soulmates

 

i'll never understand 

myself

my pain

 

it's all consuming 

 

everything sets me off

 

but especially him 

 

and him 

 

and 

 

i cant ever admit 

my inability 

 

independence

defines me 

ive always been "strongest"

 

yet reality 

here

 

im so weak

dependent

 

free in chains

chained by a mind

sculpted by pains

 

no one to blame 

no finger to point

 

its just me

so let me be

but please

never leave...