Until I Leave

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Mom,

 

Would you listen?

Would you understand?

If I could tell you

How I despise the man

You have forced me to know.

 

I want you to know

No longer can I open up

For every time I have,

My concerns

Are turned to dust.

 

My sorrows are valid

But I’m not allowed to explain;

He’s not called on me to speak.

Suppressed is how I feel

My voice, meaningless.

 

Constantly I feel scolded

For absolutely no wrong

Now I live waiting

For the next faulty mistake

To make, never intentional.

 

How could you wonder why?

When I leave, I will never come back

Can you not see?

I am only tolerating

My childhood obligations

 

As soon as I can

I will fly far from here

I cannot return

It would shatter me

With him, I cannot be.

 

Since you refuse

To acknowledge the

Destruction he has caused within

We both have to live

With the words I cannot say

 

Until I leave.

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