Unsent letters
I sit here everyday
Wondering whether I should say it
But everytime I allow that thought to cross my mind
Every single time
You prove me wrong
Or I remember something you said to me
I'm being judgemental, I know
And the worst part is that I'm Judging you from your past
Guilty and guilty
But remember
Words weigh a lot
And let's be honest
That is the only thing you let me have access to,
Your words.
Your words
That's the only exit point I have
So I'm afraid I'll have to take it
Your actions
I don't want to dwell so much on them
Because
I will be biased
Well I always am when it comes to you
But with your words
I can't do that
Though I interprete them wrong sometimes
But guess what
I'm holding on
Holding on to something that maybe nonexistent
Because I'd rather
Not know what
Rejection feels like
Coming out of your mouth
And I'll pretend this is the same reason
Why you wouldn't act on them
Well maybe we're both pretenders
Or I'm just insanely insane