you never notice
how I just keep to myself
avoiding everyone's gaze,
avoiding the questions;
"how are you?",
"are you okay?",
"how's your day?"
all I say is, fine or— maybe even alright to change it up.
no one ever seems to second guess what I actually mean.
and I swear to you, I'm pleading for you,
to notice I'm not okay, not yesterday, not today,
there's always a chance I won't be okay another other day.