The Truth
February 21, 2016 at 8:53 PM
You want the honest truth?
From the moment I met you
On the evening of a
Day in March
I knew exactly what I wanted.
I wanted to get to know you.
All of you.
I wanted to know
What you loved
And why.
What your favorite tv show is
That you just have to keep re-watching it.
I wanted to know if you’d
Ever been to Disneyland
And if so, what your favorite
Disney movie was.
I wanted to know what you
Think about late in the night
When you can’t sleep.
And then when I got to be around you.
I wanted time to stop.
Just to pause for a little while.
For the earth to stop spinning
And everything freezes
Except you and I
So I could be with you for
Just an extra few seconds more
That I know I would never get back.
With the time that I’ve gotten to know you
I fell in absolute wonder and awe.
I love the way you laugh
And the way you smile.
The smile that makes the world
Seem a little less scary than what it is.
I love the way you speak about the world
And that everything happens for a reason
And that everything will be okay in the end.
I love the way you would look at e
Even when our eyes met
You just kept looking.
Making me feel like a
Priceless piece of artwork
Beyond comparable
To even the most famous works.
I love how you taught me how to dance
And I love the way you dance.
I love the way that with just one glimpse
Of your beautiful self
I would become instantly happy
And all the darkness in the world disappears.
Seeing you night after night
In my mind when I couldn’t even hold you.
But when we could
When you held me
God it felt so real.
I bet we could’ve dusted my skin for fingerprints
And they would belong to you alone.
Everything was real in that moment
I swear I could paint it
On a thousand canvases
And each would be the same.
Your arms wrapped around me tightly
Head buried in the crook of my neck.
As my ear is pressed to your chest
To hear your heartbeat and
Listen to the music of your breathing.
And find my hands caressing the back of your neck.
And everything would be warm
Because outside would be too cold.
And you would just be there.
Holding me.
And everything in that moment
Was pure bliss.
Time wasn’t slipping away
Because it was nonexistent
In the one place I will always find you.
So the truth is
I love everything about you
And I’m still waiting to learn more.
And I miss you so much
I’m starting to feel
Almost homesick
That I have to rely on photos
To gain back just the smallest fraction of happiness.
Truth is I probably love you
And I am scared
Because I have no idea
What it is you feel or think.
Or if you even think of me
Or feel for me.
Truth is
I want to be the one
That you long to wake up next to
And I promise I’ll try to remember
To wake you up with
Pancakes and strawberries.
I want to be the one
You play your piano for
The one you sing for.
I want to be the reason
Why you are always eager to fall asleep
Because you know I’ll be there
And time will never beat us.
I want to be the reason that
You smile on a rainy day.
But above all truths:
I want to be yours
And I want you to be mine.
-(hms)