Travelers

Schizophrenia is like having a bunch of strangers living in your head, coming and going as they please. It’s such as a traveler who is only home for days at a time then abandons for the beach or the falls. You can’t tell the traveler to stay just as much as you can’t tell them to leave, because your head is their home not yours.

The traveler has friends, and sometimes they sound like the whimpering of children being burned alive in hell, or the echoes of voices traveling through the mountains at midnight. Joy and madness are two very distinctive emotions but often times it’s hard to pick out who is angry and who is happy because they all intertwine into one huge commotion. The travelers are quite psychotic themselves, they say “dogs are green,” “the outside is outside,” or disconnected sentences such as “why fat blue green.” Oftentimes there is no logic to them and their character lives like a three year old child with a 30 year old voice.

You’ve been better, you reassure yourself; In fact it still frightens you when you lay in bed some nights after a normal week and you hear a young ladies voice who is not your mother. It sends chills down my your spine and gives you goosebumps, you can feel the panic shock through your body from your head to toes.

These are the nights your silence is stolen from you. You lay in bed thinking about everything you didn’t accomplish in your day, everything you have failed at and it’s the travelers who remind you of the wrongs you have done. Taking Sleep aids are no longer for sleep, it feeds at the monsters in your head until your drowsiness kicks your brain off and your left at peace - but think again my child, those dreams are just as psychotic as your consciousness, and the travelers will not hesitate to invite themselves to the surreal reality of your lucid, tempestuous thoughts.

 

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