today
Today is here
The air is cold
My legs are frozen
So is my heart
The wind whips through my hair
I take my time walking inside the church
I look back outside
And see the stormy, grey clouds
I feel nothing
I walk into the sanctuary
Lined with red carpet
I see the casket
His body
Unmoving
Nothing
My friends are there
Family whisked off
Running errands
To make sure this runs smoothly
I sit down
Take a deep breath in
I still feel nothing
My legs shake
As I stand
And walk towards the open casket
I see his face
So calm
I stop three feet away
My feet frozen to the ground
I wait for him to move
To wake up
To say “just kidding, I’m fine!”
To be healed
For cancer to be rid of his body
He does nothing
I feel everything
My brother is dead
And there is nothing I can do
-To My Big Brother