#1. Write bull shit
It doesn't really matter if the words you choose to describe yourself with
don't actually reflect yourself as an individual
As long as they are not the words and that are inside your head
like :Unworthy, lonely, afraid
Don't use these words
use words Like
Grit
always use the word grit
 

#2. If you have been suicidal or thought about suicide
DO NOT
I REPEAT DO NOT write that you have ever had those thoughts before
instead write about how you are a great listener and are very quite
at least you'll be telling half the story
Not that you are a bucket that for some reason everyone feels to put their shit in and walk away leaving you with the heavy load
BUT DON'T TELL THEM THAT
 

#3. Create another person
This will be easy because you already do this everyday
You keep your mouth shut and you never show who you really are
So creating a new person should be easy
But make sure this person is nothing like you
For instance this person is confident lovable and doesn't want to hurt them self.  
 

#4. Delete all existence of yourself
Play a game
Pretend you really did jump out that window or fire that gun
Then you won't have to face yourself as who you really are
A mess
You can just sweep the pieces under the rug

leave it there until the next person comes along and tries to clean it
Ignore it until finally it over comes you and oozes out of your body

and covers every inch of your skin until you have to confront the beast you have become
And then don't speak a word to anyone

that sometimes you think about death

and sometimes that you want it so bad you can't control your body
 

#5 write a new essay
Say that you have for years have been dealing with depression and anxiety

and sometimes it is your closest friend
Tell them that now when you look in a mirror

you tell your body that it is the only thing you got

You're telling your mind to make peace with your body

learning how to fight together not against

That sometimes it's hard to get out of bed

but you do it anyway because you remember the weeks where it hurt too bad to breathe

You are strong because of it

I am strong because of it  
I am a fighter not a victim

I am learning to breathe underwater

It may take me a while but I know it's worth it

I am teaching myself that  

I am worthy I am learning to breathe by giving myself air