Thoughts
I look back at my life today as I hit this pipe I hold in front of me.
I realize I have nothing to show for what I have done in the years I’ve been on this earth.
I have not achieved anything of my own.
Nor will I ever.
I am stuck in an endless cycle of mind numbing drugs and people I do not know.
I am trying to numb the thoughts as they come and go as they please.
I need them to stop but they are relentless.
Nothing relaxes me more than this herb I am smoking.
It allows my thoughts to subside.
I get my work done with time to spare.
My mind wouldn’t have let me do this on my own.
I need help whether from a plant or a pill.
People come and people go flowing in and out of my life like a river.
The only ones that stay are the ones that cast their hurtful stones at me in hopes that I fall.
One day I will dry up with nothing left to keep me sane.
No money, drugs, or unknown people.
Once again left alone with my thoughts.