Can I live without a heart
and breath with a soul?
Can my tender heart grow cold
and my psyche turn to stone?
Can I live another life
dimensions away and unknown?
Can I fade out of existence
knowing I’m no good for my own?

Twisting, clenching
a razor hurts less
I’m a mess I guess
it’s my fault I’ll confess.
Plunge a knife into my chest
rip it out
scream and shout
hurts less without a doubt.

I hate myself, I hate my ways
I always do this, I have no right.
Make me another sign
change my hopeless fate.
The stars deny my longing
I can’t argue destiny
I can’t hold on to my jewel anymore
lose to jealousy.

I feel sick, I feel numb
the world has gone quiet
eerie silence that hangs over
telling me it’s done.
Take the knife, remove my pain
make it end, make it end
because I realize once again
love’s no rose, only thorns.