Think Like Me
Dealing with things is what everyone learns to do
How you deal with it is up to you
When I have to go against the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced
I run. Not away to the seeing eye but to where all voices are silenced
I escape from the stress that tears me up inside
But on the outside you wouldn’t know what I actually hide
I don’t know what I’m doing exactly but I do know life isn’t supposed to be this hard
It’s supposed to prepare me not cut me with every little glass shard
I help others before myself and always there because I want that for me
But when I am running I wish someone would know what to do and how to be
I then ease myself and put me back together and let the wind blow all stress away
I know I can fight his dad and to help me I pray
With the ink in my skin for the one I will forever fight
I know I’m a fighter and it’s my God given right
When you get butterflies and a tingling sensation all over you
From how someone makes you feel you don’t know what to do
The totally clichéd head over heels falling every teen does
It will change everything from what it was
It’s like a little game where we take a chance
We have lots of fun and share some romance
But sometimes it doesn’t always end up how it’s supposed to
Then you think there is something wrong with you
You blame yourself and want things okay
But it never ends up that way
This might not happen to you but this is me
I then escape to a place and let my thoughts go free
I hide behind my phone and my welcoming music
It’s the place that understands me, its therapeutic
Coming back is probably one of the hardest choices I’ve ever made
To be in a negative place and the real you seems to fade
You walk into an abyss of human beings clocked in the image of "the real world"
Where skinny is beautiful and the face of good and evil is swirled
You don’t know who to talk to or even trust
But if you make one bad decision they look at you with disgust
The stress that high school brings is so much for a teen
But to be a mom and go to school is a life time of stress and I’m only nineteen
For someone who wants to quit every second of the day
I must say I’m proud of myself for doing it anyway
I get embarrassed sometimes knowing what people think
Giving disapproving looks and I feel I’m at the brink
The point of breaking and giving up giving in
But I don’t have a breaking point I’m not gonna give them the satisfaction.
I don’t know what to say no words come to mind
This is what I leave in hope you will find
My final entry but I’m not saying goodbye
This is the beginning this is where I learn to fly
I know where I’ve been and learned a lot from it
I take a leap of faith holding nothing back not a bit
Through embarrassment, resentment, and fitting in
To finding the one and believing from within
Things happen for a reason is what they say
I will find the reason one day
I don’t know where I’m going this isn’t the end
It’s the start of something new and about to begin
So let’s start fresh let’s make mistakes be free
Because you haven’t seen the last of me