There's a world outside this
There's a world outside this hell-hole that I now live.
I've been dreaming about it since I was in the second grade,
This world is busy yet calming ,
This world has opportunity and exotic people.
They call it the big city,
The city that never sleeps.
It's perfect for me because sleep isn't something I've known,
With all the parental pressure that killed my childhood
And continues to stab away at my life and future.
Hatred that grows stronger everyday for him,
For him bringing me here
For his own selfish getaway;
For the causation of my emotional distress
And for the ignorannce of an adolescent in a man's body he protrayed.
"You are going to play sports!"
*But I wanted to dance*
"Can you just cover up?!"
*I didn't know how, my body was changing"
"You can't wear make up! Why do you need make up?!"
*I just wanted to feel pretty*
"You have to get straight A's , that C is unacceptable!"
*But I'm only average*
"You can't date you are too young!"
*I wanted to know what real male affection was*
"You can't go out with guys by yourself, I don't know what you're doing!"
*I wanted to know what it was like to be on a first date*
"You're going to college and making sure you do something with your life to make money!"
*I wanted to be an art major and follow my dreams*
"You hate it everywhere! That's not good enough for you to leave another school"
* I hated everywhere you wanted me to go*
But I'm not backing down from a dream I've held with me
I'll take the consequences from an unsupportive "man"
Because this is my life,
Struggling to get my voice heard
But this time I'm not settling for less than the happiness I deserve.