Do you ever just want to scream?
You don’t care where you are at the moment
You just want to let your voice out
Scream at the top of your lungs
Cry until your body is exhausted
Hit the ground
And destroy everything in your path
Tear your clothes into pieces
Because all of a sudden the feeling of polyester and denim
Burns your skin
You want to run as fast as you can
You don’t care where you’re headed as long as you’re away
Away from them
Take all your angry out on the Earth
That did nothing wrong, might I add
But to tear at the dirt and slam your hands down and just scream
“I hate You!”
Even though you really mean you hate yourself
Every paranoid thought that as ruined countless of relationships and confidence
Every boy that said something slightly, just ever so slightly, off
That made you think he’s not interested
Or subtle looks of disapproval you see come across a stranger’s face down the street
They might’ve looked at your outfit or hair or even your weight
And now you’re going home to cut
Cut your life away
Watch blood run down your skin like a heavy stream
God that feels good.
And then silence
That numbness silence that makes you nothing
And then your cycle starts over
Tell me, do you want to scream again?
Because I do.