Teenage pregnancy

Stressed, depressed,alone,
Locked up in a room in an informal settlement
With torrents of questions crisscrossing my entangled mind.
Regretting of what happened in my fucking life,
As my six- month old baby continues to grow bigger and bigger in my belly,it reminds me of the choices I made seven months ago.

Living a hard slum life,
Just surviving by the grace of God,each and everyday in a humble background.
As a young Teenage girl,the journey had become more tougher,
Using pieces of old clothes and blankets as pads during my menses.

Life changed,
When a handsome well-off man got attracted to my beauty.
He seduced me with sweet promising words that caused butterflies in my stomach.
I fell for his words and boom!
We became lovers.

He promised to marry me and take care of me,
He provided me with everything I needed,
I felt like all my problems had already been solved.
This love made me leave school and run away from my home.
Living together,he took advantage of me and turned me to a sex toy,
He got what he wanted,
With nothing to say,I had to accept because that was a payment for his good deeds.

He switched off his phone the day i told him that I was pregnant.
Till now,I don't know where he is and what he is thinking.
Why did he do this to me?
Why can't he accept responsibility as a father to my unborn baby?
Or was I the one who messed up?

I even blame my parents,
For not teaching me on how the world is out there.
For not warning me of beasts outside there.
For not making me aware of using contraceptives.
I'm now regretting of the decisions I made,
Because they never gave me necessary guidance on how to deal with life.

I'm ashamed of what I did,
My friends isolated me, because they fear my influence.
My siblings abandoned me,
My respect and reputation has been lost and destroyed.
I feel that I'm no longer important like before,
I'm lonely and rejected.
Nobody understands me,
No one cares how hard my life is now.
I'm only left with my unborn baby as the only hope
I feel being a burden to my parents.
Who will take care of my baby?
Since we are all jobless.

Sometimes I think of suicide,but I remember that i still have big dreams to be accomplished.
Sometimes I contemplate abortion,but I remember the song "Abortion is a crime"
The sixth commandment also condemns it,but why kill an innocent soul?
He maybe a source of blessings to me.

I have learnt from my mistakes,
Experience is truly the best teacher,
I have learnt how toxic relationships can be,the effects of premarital sex.
I have to accept what can't be changed but rather find the good in my situation.
I have to forget the past,but it's not easy because my mind still revolves in it.

I have accepted the responsibility of being a mother,
I want to leave a legacy of being the best responsible mother in the society.
I will teach my unborn baby to make wise choices in his entire life.
I will correct him incase of any mistakes.
I will make him aware of everything most parents never tell their children.

If she would be a girl,I would encourage her to maintain her dignity and Chase her dreams first.
I will teach her everything girls need to know .
I will warn her not to get carried away with word and gifts from men,
Because she has to give sex for a love that is untrue,
And careless excercise of freedom can be costly.

If he would be a boy,I would encourage him to work hard ,
To use his money in ways that could help him grow rather than spending on ladies,
Not to give love for sex.
And to think before making decisions.

This is what I want ,
I want to raise a child with respect for self,
A child who will set a good example for others to emulate,
A child who will live a better life than mine.
This child is my testimony,
A story for another day.
God ,bless my unborn baby.

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