Sometimes to find yourself you must first self-destruct,
And that’s exactly what I did.
I tore myself apart from the inside out.
I destroyed everything in my path.
I was on a rollercoaster that only seemed to go down,
Sending me plummeting to rock bottom.
I never knew a person could feel so low.
I was stuck in my own personal hell.
And no matter how hard I tried,
It seemed like there was no escaping.
Finally when I had all that I could take,
When I realized I was turning myself insane,
When the self-hatred I built up inside became too much to bare,
I decided it was time to brake free.
I was going to reinvent myself.
No more dwelling in my own misery,
I was sick of being surrounded by my own toxic thoughts and feelings.
My haze began to clear,
I was seeing colors I never knew existed.
I’d been gone for so long,
I forgot about all the beauty earth has to offer.
This journey to self-recovery was not an easy one,
But the end result is greater than I could have ever imagined.
I‘m seeing things in a whole new light.
I’m finally putting all my broken pieces back together.
I am a survivor.