my jealousy fuels a fire, uncontrollable,
it eats every ounce of fresh air.
a rage builds inside.
almost to sweep me away,
but leaves me dangling on dreams
just to make me suffer.
i must enjoy the suffering,
so i have began to think.
as the red monster clashes with my lasting hopes.
my attempts of drowning the flame have failed.
i only come back for more.
give me more.
leave me on the cusp of life and death.
here is where i find peace.
this must be peace.