I am supposed to be the one with my life together.

I am the one who can do no wrong

The one that everyone looks up to.

 

I mentor children and have siblings of my own

That I am supposed to lift up

So they don’t feel alone

 

But I am failing

Falling

I can’t get up

The stress is pressing

I’ve just had enough

 

I want to give in

And just go to sleep

To sleep for eternity

To finally find peace

 

But I can’t

I am suffocating

On air poisoned by despair

I AM NOT BREATHING
 

I am suffocating on work

On life

On everything

 

I am just so tired of everyone coming to me

Asking me what to do

I don’t know

 

I have spent so long putting everyones needs

Before my own

That I have forgotten how to take care of myself

 

Why does this keep happening?

Why can’t I just sleep

Why can’t anyone just LEAVE ME ALONE

Let me fall into the deep

 

Into that dark void

Of oblivion

 

I give up

I am throwing in the towel

Good bye world

My life

It ends now.