Struggling With an Inner Child
Location
Another sunrise, another sun set, another day gone
Time flies and waits for no one
Ready or not the tick tock of the clock song
Always moving always going
Want to slow down but no time for that
Have to grow up ready or not
Want to be little, want to be big
Want independence, want freedom
Want the comfort of mommy’s arms
Want mommy’s firm hand
Confusion, reluctance, tears and frustration
Time to fly little one, time to leave the nest
Want to stay, want to hide
Want my bottle, want my blankie, want my stuffed puppy
Want a job, want my own place, want to run free
Conflicted, confused, disoriented, depressed
Must grow up, want more time
Must fly free, want to be caged in
I am baby, I am child, I am little girl
I am grown, I am adult, I am woman
I am misunderstood, even by myself
Need help and have none
Need a hug, need a cuddle, need acceptance, need love
Need a fantasy I can never archive
Need a reality check I know not how to get
Contradictions, confusions, mysteries, miseries
Baby bottles beside nail polish
Pacifiers beside car keys
Diapers beside thongs
Two sides of the same whole
Not completely whole, not completely separate
But all me