Stim

Rock, Twist, Tap, Clap

Click your pen.

Rub your hair.

Spin in a circle.

Flap your hands.

It’s okay. It’s normal.

Normal for someone on the Autism Spectrum.

My friends and I think I'm on the Autism Spectrum.

I don't have a diagnosis but in our opinion it's obvious.

They are experts, after all. 

They are autistic as well.

Rock your body.

Twist your head and wrists.

Tap your feet on the floor.

Clap your hands.

Click, Rub, Spin, Flap

It’s alright. I'm fine.

Except when I'm not fine.

When my clothes fit the wrong way.

When my skin itches from the inside, out.

When something is too loud.

When something is too close. 

When everyone's looking at me and I don't know what to say so I stop saying things at all.

 

You’re probably wondering how we came to this conclusion.

Well, my friends are on the Autism Spectrum.

We do the same things when we are happy or sad or overwhelmed.

I don't have a diagnosis but in our opinion it's obvious.

They are experts, after all. 

They are autistic as well.

The first friend to tell me this said I do the same things as them.

I rock. I flap. I fidget.

I can't easily make eye contact.

I show signs of Autism.

Rock, Twist, Tap, Clap

Click, Rub, Spin, Flap

This is called Stimming.

Self-Stimulatory Behaviorー Stimmingー how I deal with emotions.

When I'm happy.

When I'm sad.

When I'm angry.

Stim.

Stim, Stim, Stim.

Stim when you’re happy.

Stim when you’re sad. 

Stim to make you feel better.

When you see a cute dog. 

When you lose a game of Uno.

 

Stim like no one’s watching.

Like no one’s watching.

No one’s watching.

No one’s watching.

Everyone’s watching.

Rock.

Twist.

Tap.

Clap.

Rock your body.

Twist your head.

Tap your feet.

Clap your hands.

Click.

Rub.

Spin .

Flap.

Click your pen.

Rub your hair.

Spin in a circle.

Flap your hands. 

 

Stim.

This poem is about: 
Me

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