the
light in your eyes
that shines
when you laugh
used to
light up my world
and my world was
a small town
and our little house
with our
big garden
and it was
comfortable
and it was
everywhere
and it was
perfect

and we breathed on
steadily
and
quietly
through the night
as we had our
whole lives
and everytime you
exhaled
i heard a lullaby
and it was
warm
and it was
home
and it was
love

and soon
the dawn hesitantly
peaked over
the horizon
and the golden light
shimmered
through trees
in the backyard
and it was
new
and it was
exciting
and it was
temptation

and soon
the sun rose
and i was
blind
and i looked
over at you
and your eyes
were still shining
but i could
barely see them
in the morning glow
and it was
big
and it was
terrifying
and it was
the world

and soon
we left that town
and we absorbed
the world
and you
and i
ran
and leaped
and smiled
but i went faster
and higher
and bigger
and i was
trapped
and i was
confused
and
i loved you. i really did.
but i was
more

and soon
it was me
and you were there
but also
you werent
there at all
and i was soaring
and you were
cleaning up the
small
new york apartment
and tending
the garden
you kept
on the porch
and it was
dying
and it was
crumbling
and i was
sorry

and soon
i missed our cottage
and our garden
and the
stars in your eyes
and all
i had
was memories
and i was
sorry
and i was
sorry
and i was
sorry

and soon
i was at the top of
the corporate ladder
and i did it
we did it
we made it
but you were
crying quietly
when you thought
i wouldnt see
and the stars
fell out of
your eyes
and onto
the kitchen floor
and it was
heartbreaking
and it was
broken
and i just
loved you too much
to keep you there

and soon
i was alone
in the new york
apartment
CEO
Fortune 500
and i sobbed
and howled
and wept
hoping
the sound
would fill the place
you used to fill
and i was
lonely
and i was
pathetic
and i was
'successful'

and soon
i melted
into my work
to drown
out the pain
of the dress
you wore
when i took you
out to an expensive dinner
and where you
kissed me
on new years eve
and how you
used to
look at me
and feel something
other than
confusion
and i was
miserable
and i was
rich
and i was
hurt
and i had
hurt you

and soon
i stopped
hiding the pain
and let the way that
i missed you
hit me like a truck
because
you thought
i was better than you
and i know
youre better
than i could ever hope to be
and later
you moved back
to our small town
and much later
your stars
moved back
to your
eyes
and i was never
around to see
you glow
because
i didnt deserve you
and i am
sorry
and i am
sorry
and i am
sorry.