
STAGED
if you have stayed
longer than expected
you are one among many
for all acquaintances
grown attached
unintentionally rally
if you’ve seen my light
and enjoyed basking
long enough to keep you
then your hopes for us
are sadly not possible
and won’t end gracefully
for the shining light
that comes through
cannot sustain my bouts
of shadow
now deeply invested
and assuming the best
we will be kept alive
by spurts of love
always short lived
I don’t plan these
monstrous outcomes
but my light draws
helpless victims
to fall in love
with a farse
representation
of kindness
the traces of charm
left behind
within are the rays left
not yet absorbed
and when I am free
even for a moment
from my exhausting
exorcisms failed
my heart shows
who I once was
in brief clips
at times others
are drawn into
the trap that is me
time spent together
quickly revealing
the instability
of my mind
this tends to outweigh
the good moments
being spread
further apart
and then
as expected,
you’ll search
for a way out
I used to be hurt
when being given up on
but now I understand
and even warn the innocent
showing interest
in my slivers of light
aiding in their escape
from a mostly
dark
dark
boy