The Spectrum
I either love so hard, I die.
Or I am dying so painfully, I lust for love.
Some say I may be extreme.
I simply reply with how much I am trying to feel alive.
For someone who is awake and brerathing, my eyes feel closed and my lungs empty.
I put on a face like I am one with the milkyway and a facade like I know how trail star dust in every step I walk.
But beneath, I am scared.
I have been afraid to truly live.
I have been afraid of growing up.
The owl tells me it is time for change.
I try to water myself with self love and give myself light with concious growth.
I am discovering happiness.
It lies deep in my own rainforest of a heart where strong trees grow and rain consistently brews.
I am discovering how to become grounded and therefore become aware of needed boundaries.
The key rests in the dormant volcano of my brain.
I am recovering my sense of creativity.
It's laid in the hospital bed of my sight and is beginning to heal.
I am strengthening my voice so I can defend myself.
It's been laying under the welcome mat right next to the houses spare key.
I am processing my anger thouroughly.
It's been locked up in the depths of my being because I hid it away from myself.
My saddness has been at the forefront.
It's taken the wheel and hijacked me for a while now.
I am processing.
My spectrum is expanding.
And so am I.