Soulmate
When my father died
A part of me died with him
He loved me
A bastard
My mother never loved him
I saw his soul diminish
He loved me
Even though he knew
I was not his
I will never love
Love makes you weak
And I am not weak
love can be ugly
It leaves you vulnerable
you can be forsaken
you can be betrayed
you can be used
you can be manipulated
Love is a lie
People falsely believe in its power
A power said to conquer others
Yet anger, violence, and betrayal exist
At its worse
Love is abusive
A loved one hits you
A loved one verbally degrades you
All in the name of love
And yet they stay
Because they love
Forever is ingrained into rings and vows
But
Forever is fleeting
Marriage ends and bitter divorce
Or agonizing tolerance
Love is said to fix our problems
But love causes problems
However
Because I love you
I have changed
You never lie
You tell the truth always
Even if I don't want to hear it
You'll do what's best for me
And for that I love you
You respect me
You know my boundaries
And you never cross them
You know my love for God
And you try to know him
for me
You understand me
And my past
You know I'm scared
of love
of you
leaving
You trust me
And I trust you
I tell you everything
The good and bad
Yet you stay
Because I love you
I have saved myself for you
And act you appreciate
Not something that turns you off
And even though I haven't met you yet
And all my friends tell me a gentleman like you doesn't exist
Behind my apathetic facade
And hardened inexorable heart
I have hope to meet you
My soulmate