Something to hold onto

I would love to tell you "take all the time you need, I'll be here"
I would really, really love to,
But I don't really know if I can.
Not like this.
Desert.
Dry.
Empty.
Lost.
Lonley.
Alone.
I can't keep on climbing this infinite mountain Without knowing were the peak is,
Without a rope.
Give me something to hold onto
At least while we get there,
Give me some hope.
It is sad that I would settle for crumbs waiting for the whole bread loaf,
But I would.
It is sad that you aren't even aware that I'm picking what I can,
But you can't.
Have I accepted the truth that you can't give me anything else for now?
Yes, I have.
You can't even give me more.
But I don't even have those crumbs.
I imagine them,
I pick them from the floor I painted in my head,
A floor where I once crashed
And I keep on falling.
I can taste them,
The taste you gave me once and never again,
Before I realized that I was crawling.
But I keep making myself believe
That if I follow those imaginary crumbs,
I'll soon find a rose petal path.
I'll soon find that active affection I can't even explain.
I'll soon find the place I want to be with you.
I'll soon find something that awakens me inside.
But that is not you, I wouldn't even expect it.
And it's not even fair asking for you to make it.
Maybe from your point of view,
You're throwing slices of bread at me.
But I can't seem to reach them,
It's never going to be enough, is it?
What a pity, what a shame
Considering how much I love you,
How much I laud you.
But I have nothing to hold onto.
So I'll fall again,
In and out of love
I'll fall again and again.

Comments

alexdoskoris

The author doesn't want to express their feelings

alexdoskoris

The author doesn't want to express their feelings

rk1522201

Poem speaks about a person struggling to hold on because the significant other is not giving them anything to hold on to. Making him feel sad, alone, etc. Feeling like they are in a endless circle of lost hope.

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