They took me as a joke because they didn't understand why I did what I did

I couldn't breathe I was tired of being treated like a kid

Just once she said, try it once

I thought it would be fun and I was kind of so curious

But after the first hit 

I was so happy I was delirious

It seemed to good to be true

My problems went away 

And I knew I would hit it a couple of more times 

only for a couple of days

Until I became sober and back to reality

Life was kicking me away

And I hated the thought of being me

So I get back to school and see my

Homies

They want me to try it again

I was like why not , please show Mel

Yet again I was happy

Or I thought I was

Or I really wasn't

This thing they gave me

Made me 

Hate me

Create me 

Lately 

I was in a bubble that seemed to be ruining me daily

The first time they found out

I pretty much got beat

A son to touch such a substance didn't deserve heaven , only the heat

But right then when they pushed him away

Is when really he just wanted them to stay

They didn't get that I was stuck

That I was lost and really just out of my luck 

That this substance made me

Forget 

So I smoked it again

And took my last hit

They called it a shame but were too blind to see that we were all just running a game

What you have to see is that I was depressed

That I was so sad that I was so vexed

And that I had no love no one to help connect

So I might have been Doing wrong and things that were a disgrace

But I'm a human with a heart please don't be ashamed to look at my face

This drug thing has always been a cry for help

You smoke it you forget , not realizing it's ruining your health

The problem is, no one to talk to

No one that gets it and makes you feel like you can be you

So when he disappeared into this other world

He imagined life non existent 

Like he can be anyone he wanted and everyone would dig it

Until that day came and it was too much

Too much smoking he had to give it up

So when the homies came

Along 

and tried to get me to try that bong

 I had to tell them to

Leave I was done doing that wrong

What I didn't see happening was instead

Of smoking away 

i Found God and realized he was here to stay

God gave me this sweetness that no blunt could

If I could take it all back, I swear I would

Because to be a Palestinian kid who was on drugs didn't sound right

How could someone with such status smoke on a pipe

When you haven't tried it you wouldn't understand

When you first try it you don't get how it has a hold on you

How you think it's not that serious till your personality starts to mold on you

You don't want to be that guy

The one when ur name comes up and everyone is like why

The one who was a hopeless case and everyone couldn't wait to say Bye

So don't ask how he could hit it

Ask him why he did it