A Sleepless Night
Late one night, tossing and turning, I can’t sleep
A lot on my mind, with no one to wail to
Watching my beam of light, sleep so peacefully
One thought that sticks out with an annoyance
You, my love, my best-friend, the girl of my dreams
Wondering y, you aren’t lying next to me
Pondering, if I still make your heart beat fast
Thinking how much of an impact, you instill on my life
Contemplating if I should leave things, how they are
Realizing how much I miss you, yearn for you, and need you
Battling these repulsive destructive ideas of us
Repeating over & over to myself, that it could be worse
Trying to figure out where things went wrong and why
Facing the reality of forever loneliness, I’m Drowning in my seclusion
I suddenly glance at the clock, its 01:43
A lot on my mind, with no one to heart to heart with
Staring at my breath of life, dreaming so serenely
Another thought that makes me frustrated
Love, a feeling of strong affection for a person
Heartbroken, because I did everything, I could to make you content
Distraught, because the pain is so unbearable
Rejected, because he wants you, but I crave you
Disturbed, because this isn’t the first sleepless night
Worried, about you and my angels
Confused, about what’s next for us
Late one night, after the tossing and turning
After the crying and sobbing
After the racing and rushing thoughts
I glance at my Hershey Kiss, smiling beautifully
He is my antidote as I continue to doze off
DeNikAriJai 4-15-2015