Silence 

Hard to maintain

But not impossible

Especially when nobody listened in the first place

When silent

Everyone's happy

The absense of your voice is music to their ears

Even when your doing it for a cause

They don't care

Few see purpose

But all love the absense

A sound so sweet

You not saying one word

But no one ever hears your thoughts

For they do not listen closely

Now realizing speaking has no purpose

Wondering

So why did you learn

They believe if for no medical reason 

It does not matter

But it does to you

The importance is great

People out there

Is good reason to you

The silence is so different

Usually so loud

And full of anger

Or laughter

Now no sound

Suddenly everything is so quiet

They don't know you or what you've been through

You may not know them

But you don't judge them

So why can they judge you

Everyone's cheering

You haven't the slightest idea why

Then you realize

You say a word

They seem upset now

As they come to remember

The voice that has been missing

Theanger in them is visable

And you decide

Talking is overrated anyway

You did it for anxiety and bulimia

Depression and anorexia

Self harm and those no longer here

Due to the darkness pulling them in 

Too far

But they just want silence

To emerge once again

It doesn't need meaning

Just silence

So you let the darkness 

Pull you in deep

Seeing nobody cares

And you give in to the silence

Your voice once one of many

Now not even a whisper

Darkness shadows you

As they make a joke of it all

The darkness so cold

So deep and unfeeling

It keeps its victims locked away

In its cages

Some never manage escape

Others are lucky

And some are simply pulled in to far

As you watch people once so close

Deteriorate

Not a sign of aknowledgement

They call you crackhead

Bitch

Ghetto

Simply out of control

Angry

Unfeeling

Crazy Abnormal

Ugly

And fat

But you come to a realization

You don't care

You never did

So why bother listening now

Maybe they can be right

It doesn't matter though

Just tells you something

They'd rather you give in

And they are fake

The darkness is pulling

And I refuse to give in

Silence is the loudest scream

And as a friend once said;

In that moment 

Silnce was no more