Sick

The glory days
 
She once had thought
 
Denial in her mind
 
 
Her life was free
 
Her pain was gone
 
She was one of a kind
 
 
The past had past
 
The future near
 
The present full of thrill
 
 
“But why?” she asked
 
Did that empty spot
 
Never seem to fill
 
 
Every day
 
She bottled up
 
Her pain, her rage, her sin
 
 
Until finally she could not stand
 
The darkness set within
 
 
“Escape” she thought
 
“I’ll run away 
 
And won’t even be missed”
 
 
She never thought 
 
How hurt they were
 
Relationships she risked
 
 
Now blind to beauty
 
Clouded mind
 
Becoming what she feared
 
 
She fled inside
 
Her twisted mind
 
And never reappeared
 
 
I can’t shake this
 
Something’s amiss
 
No solution
 
Retribution
 
Empty inside me
 
I’ll never be free
 
 
Henry was a foster kid
 
Never felt at home 
 
 
Acted like a little boy
 
Even when he was grown
 
 
Couldn’t form relationships
 
Quite like the rest
 
 
Started hearing voices
 
And getting real depressed
 
 
Began slamming heroin
 
Cheap liquor and meth
 
 
Living on the streets again
 
He always prayed for death
 
 
Get sober for a little while
 
Feels like he is reborn
 
 
But the voices take him out again
 
Angry and forlorn 
 
 
I can’t shake this
 
Something’s amiss
 
No solution
 
Retribution
 
Empty inside me
 
I’ll never be free
 
 
Nancy has a pretty face
 
She’s always smiling bright
 
 
But underneath the cheerfulness
 
She’s not really alright
 
 
When she’s alone in her room
 
 She hugs her knees and cries
 
 
No support around her
 
She’s trapped by all her lies
 
 
The ache inside is so deep 
 
That she needs some fast relief
 
 
But drug abuse and alcohol
 
Are against her strong beliefs
 
 
Her doctor prescribed her with some Xannies for the day
 
And if the good doctor prescribed it, then it must must be ok
 
 
A change inside her body
 
Relief inside her mind
 
 
If one is helping this much
 
3 will really help unwind
 
 
I can’t shake this
 
Something’s amiss
 
No solution
 
Retribution
 
Empty inside me
 
I’ll never be free
 

 

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