Shh
He must be deaf,
The whole world must be deaf.
As my screams are muted,
Even I can’t hear them.
Should I just give up?
Let him use me then hide.
But I don’t want to be used;
What did I do?
I was laughing and having fun,
Then so quickly
I wasn’t.
I hate him.
I hate him, for touching me,
For making me grow up,
For making me feel this way,
I hate him for using me,
For making it impossible to look at my parents.
But I hate me more,
And I want him to feel this too,
To feel robbed, and violated.
Shh, he whispered
The sounds coming out of his nauseating mouth.
An intent to shut me up.
Shh, he said to my ear,
Sending shivers of disgust and calamity to my spine.
Shh, don’t make me shut up.
Shh, let me scream and cry.
Shh, it is me you're … you’re
Killing.
Killing from the inside.
As I feel his skin on my back, sweaty.
Shh, the sound numbs me as I realize he won’t stop
Shh, get off
Shh, I wanna die
Shh, Why do I deserve this?
Shh. Why me? Get off
My throat is dry,
Shh, I need to scream
Shh, I can’t really be alone
Shh, please anyone
Shh, this is wrong, this is wrong
Shh, three words,
three words were enough to shut me off
Shh, I’m too tired
It’s over
Shh, it's over
(Is it really?)
He raped me