She Is A Trending Topic
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Every morning
She looks to the clouds
Begging each one to take her
She wants to live on them
And be taken away from her hurt
Every day
She tells people she is okay
When deep inside
She is broken and damaged
Her heart numb to her pain
Every night
She wishes on the stars
To make tonight her last
She doesn't want to wake up
And face the world again
Yesterday morning
She packed up her room
So it would be easier for her parents
She got dressed in her best
And put a smile on her face
Yesterday
She seemed to be fighting
Some inner demon inside
She had a smile that was slipping
And her eyes no longer sparkled
Last night
She wrote her goodbyes
And asked for forgiveness
She said she didn't like herself
That she was too sad to live
This morning
She was found in the bathroom
As dead as she felt inside
She looked so happy
And no one could imagine why
Today
She was all anyone talked about
How they missed her so much
She didn't hear the nice things said
Because all she knew were her bullies' words
Tonight
She is a trending topic
Everyone begs for retweets in her honor
She only knew these people
Because they were the ghosts that haunt her
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I struggle with mental illness and have been suicidal. This nearly made me cry. I think it's absolutely wonderful the way you really hit on the time line: "every morning", "every day", "yesterday", "last night", etc. To the outside eye, suicide is a sudden thing, but to the victim, it's a long, miserable process. I'm very appreciative that you hit on this.
Also, pointing out the way people insert themselves into a suicide was genius. You weren't involved because you chose not to involve yourself, but you don't hesitate to post and tweet about it after the fact. That's something that doesn't get talked about much because, I think, those who kill themselves rarely recieve much support in life and it looks callous to challenge it when they recieve it during death.
This is a wonderful poem and I adore you for writing it!