Do you remember when we used to play grown ups?

Somewhere along the way when we weren’t quite teenagers but we weren’t still kids,

You lost your glasses and I got mine,

And you moved away and I moved away,

And sometimes you’d call but mainly you forgot,

And when we talked you had boyfriends and I had math tests.

 

You joke about how our friendship’s been through “hella trials and tests.”

But when we played teenagers it never ended up

That you dropped out of high school while I got the fuck out of dodge and forgot

About the time we ran through mud when we were kids.

Before we pushed each other away,

Because I stopped being your best friend and you stopped being mine.

 

Your life is a lot harder than mine.

To this I can attest.

And it takes longer and longer to chip away

The facade of a blasé disposition and too heavy eye make up

And make you talk about your feelings, like when we’d play therapist as kids.

But I wanted to help you work through it, and you wanted to forget.

 

And of course I still love you. It’s not like I forgot

That we were more than just first grade maids of honor (I in your wedding, and you in mine).

You know more about me than anyone, kid.

You know that I should have failed my road test,

And I’ve held your hair while you threw up.

Our friendship’s like a napkin covered in the messy handwriting of our past (and it might give me papercuts but I don’t want to throw it away).

 

I think maybe we just need to get away.

Take a road trip or something and unforget

Why we used to have so much fun together before we grew up.

Babe, we’ve got a goldmine

Of things to talk about, and this can be our test

To see if maybe deep down we’re still those dorky matching-dresses-wearing kids.

 

Once, you told me in the dark that you don’t want to be like your mom and have kids

Before you’ve had the chance to get away.

Before you’ve finished your high school homework and tests.

You want to live out of a suitcase and travel and “forget”

To book a hotel when you’re in the city so you can stay at mine.

We’ll sit on the couch and talk ‘til the sun comes up.

 

Let’s make a pact now, you and I- we will grow up, and we won’t stay kids,

But I’ll be your bestie if you’ll be mine, until we push each other away.

So please don’t forget - we’ll give each other matching gold stars on our friendship test.