Self Worth
I love differently
but I shouldn't be crucified for it.
I wish I could lose feelings as quickly as I catch them
and I wish I could stop caring as quickly as you
and I wish things didn't have to be this way.
But
life bears the unexpected
and quite frankly the unknown bears the hardest challenges.
I think differently
but that doesn't mean I can't think for myself.
I make stupid decisions
as we all do
Because that's what life's about.
And although I may doubt,
myself, my actions, my words, my purpose
I discover my self-worth each time and I know it's much more than how I allow ppl to treat me.
I heal differently
a lot longer than necessary in my opinion
and the littlest shit gets to me and nearly convinces me to relapse.
I'm stronger than I was yesterday and a lot stronger than I was last week
But I still have some ways to go
Because I can't do certain things or go certain places
in fear that all the memories come flooding back, good and bad.
I'm trying though, I owe it to myself.