screaming
sometimes I just want to lose it all
through the glitter into the air
watch it all fall
apart.
silent screaming in my head
running away
falling on the bed
tears fall
down.
I can feel the hairline cracks
crinkles round my eyes
all the things I lack
showing through
as my face
falls.
Then I remember:
the times before when we daydreamed
our school into a wonderland
covered in glittering frost.
we enjoyed being found
almost as much as lost.
the time I laughed so hard
I spat water all over you
which only made us
laugh harder.
water streaming
from our eyes,
so much happy.
The time you told me
I had eyes
that embraced my soul
and that was the soul
you wanted to embrace
always.
and my eyes crinkled up
like smiling raisins
as you kiss
the tip of
my nose
and my worries
away