Scream
Walking down the street
Smiling at people that I’ll never meet
Perpetually conscious of the fact that I’m alone
But glad that I’m not at home
Hey there friend
Nice to see you again
I can’t help but notice that you’re close to the edge
What would happen if you stepped off of that ledge
And the bus driver didn’t see you?
What would these people do?
Would anyone scream?
Shut up.
Leave me alone.
Cutting tomatoes for lunch in the family kitchen
I know that there must be some glitch in
My mind
Because behind
Everything that I’m thinking
Is a sinking
Feeling
A voice that says
Hey there friend
Nice to see you again
What if you let the knife linger
Just a little bit over your finger
And what if it slipped?
The blood dripped
Into the salad?
Could they taste it?
Would they scream?
Yes.
No.
Stop it.
I told you to leave me alone.
Sitting on the front of the pontoon
Sunkissed hair like a sand dune
Whipping around my face
But it can’t erase
Those words
That thought
Hey there friend
Nice to see you again
This boat isn’t too fast and I can’t help but wonder
If you jumped off right now and went under
Would your dad notice in time to turn?
Or would they see the water churn
And come up red with your chopped remains?
Water so dyed that it leaves stains?
Would your sister wonder what had happened to your brains?
Would she scream?
No.
Stop.
Please stop.
I didn’t ask for this.
Get out of my head.
Get out of my head!
Get out of my head!
You’ve heard what I’ve said!
Get out of here!
The anxiety and fear
That you bring with you
Isn’t true!
It’s unwarranted!
I’m disgusted!
But it’s over now, You’re busted!
I swear to god you make me doubt myself one more fucking time
And I’ll scream.