Russian Roulette

 

Thump- thump thump- thump 
Thump- thump thump- thump
Heart beating so hard
I check to see if it is leaving a print
Sweat pouring down mii face
Hands shaking with fear
I pray to myself hoping that somehow 
This all works out in mii favor
......
I pick up the gun 
And wait for my turn
The room is so quiet 
I can hear his eyelashes hit his face
The face that's covered with a slightly confident smirk
The face that's smiling at my fear
The fear that's evident throughout my entire frame
......
He holds his gun up
Aiming directly at my chest
Fear has engulfed me as I sit stoned with fear
...click
.......
Nothing... 
There was no bullet
I'm still here
Now it's my turn
I take a deep breath
Hoping that neither one of us had to die but knowing that one of us will be leaving this world tonight 
...click 
Nothing 
No bullet in the chamber
He's still here 
He survived 
....
Our chances are slimmer now
Only five chambers left
One of them holds our fate
One of them...
....
It's his turn again
Snickering with a glare in his eye
he aims the gun at my head
Is this the end of me
Am I about to die 
No time to think
...click
.....
Nothing 
No bullet in the chamber
Once again I dodged the grasp
The grasp of deaths cold hands
Once again I survived
Once again....
......
The chances now are slimmer than before
Only four chambers left
One holds the bullet 
One holds our fate 
One holds....
.......
Mii turn has come once again
Once again I have the power
Once again I can take his life
.... 
I aim 
Slowly I curl my finger around the trigger
I pull, and...
......
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
He's still here
He survived once again 
Once again my life is in his hands 
....
He aims at my head 
My life flashes before my eyes
Flashes at the speed of light 
I see my childhood
My teenage years 
My...
...click
......
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
Chance of survival
I'm still here 
....
Three down and three to go
I wait anxiously
Its my turn again
I pick up the gun 
And I aim it at his chest
I pull the trigger and...
.... 
Nothing 
No bullet in the chamber 
Nothing
No smiles, no sweat, 
Only anxiety  and fear
....
He picks his gun up
With two chambers left 
I see the smirk on his face
I know that this just may be my end
......
He aims 
He curls his finger around the trigger
He blows me a kiss
And pulls....
..... 
Aaaahhh!!!
The pain searing through my body
Like fire, burning my insides 
Its as if I've been tranquilized
The image before my eyes 
Fades slowly and I know 
I've been hit 
......
I grab the bleeding patch 
The blood seeping threw my shirt 
I hold on as firmly as I can
Slowly I lose my balance 
The gun clanking
Falling to the ground..
......
I see you walking away and I can't let you go
I reach out to the gun
Grab it
Call his name
And pull the trigger 
Now on my last breath...
......
Seeing him fall
Head thudding against the floor
I sigh and fall back with my last thought being
What a bad game of Russian Roulette

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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