Fri, 08/21/2015 - 12:21 -- hansche

Dealing with depression can be no fun

Especially when you feel like you're the only one

Two years ago I would have told you I was broken,

If you would have said there was hope, I'd say you'd mispoken

Every time I'd breathe, it'd feel like there was no air

I'd lay awake at night thinking how life was unfair


There was a boy at my school, his name was Robert Hibbs

He smiled all the time, and his sister called him "Ribbs"

At the end of his sophomore year he came out as gay

But at a small Catholic school, that was not okay

He started missing many days of school, and subconsciously we all knew why

Although no one said anything when he was ganged up on and no one would pry


One Saturday night in late April

I was spending time with my friends, but suddenly the mood was no longer playful

The news spread quickly that Robert was dead

"Please dont let this be true," many of us pled

On Monday in band Robert wasn't there

In the corner of the class, empty, his chair


The next week didn't go fast

The hours felt like weeks in class

Soon it was time for a funeral

Though that passed fast, it was still brutal

I was given flowers as I stood there in my black funeral dress

I wanted to cry out but I kept my feelings suppressed


I kept those flowers on my desk for a year on

To remind me that someone will always care when you're gone

Now I am mended and stronger than before

I wouldn't say I'm broken anymore

I have learned to live my life with my head high and raised tall

And as his sister said at his funeral, to do as Robert would want and "put love above all".


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Lavender Lullaby

I love this poem. Keep writing! <3


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