I am not very big
Yet the weight of how much I miss you has broken the scale.
I want you back
As someone submerged in the deepest sea wants a final breath,
while the pain in my chest makes me feel as if I'm already 20,000 leagues under;
Pulled down by the weight on my shoulders of the fear of being forgotten
like the dusty photo album under the bed with the last picture I ever took with you.
But as I sit here pouring my feelings out on paper,
you stand there with her
Giving each her some of your love.
And I wonder if they deserve it more than I did.
Because I am a piece of you.
And I hope that the weight of my being remains within you and one day you feel so heavy