Rejection is a Suicide

Mon, 05/04/2020 - 09:45 -- Kbliss

I can’t breathe the second before

I pass out

I won’t open my mouth until it feels

Like my head its exploding within

 

You don't seem to care

 how much i love you

You have no idea after you reject me

All the twisted things that pop up in my head

Do you know what i can do with my hands

 

Oh well, whatever you don’t seem to care

 

It all becomes an instinct not to let the water get in

I  start to become pale

And my eyes become bloodshot

 

I started to question

Where did my feelings go

When did i become so numb

 

You did this do me, you did

What did you do?

I don’t remember but i remember

How it felt

 

It a race for life but im number 35

Last place about to blow up in flames

Oh wait that was yesterday you were too late

45,000 people die every year because

Somebody cared but not enough

Bet you can;t even imagine what it’s like

To feel so isolated until it happens to you

Paralyzed meters down from the surface

 

Becoming so cold

A shadow of a girl i used to know

Where did she go she must of left

I know i should stay but i don’t know why

Just like i don’t know why this pain

Is spreading like a cancer

Why i need to let go

 

Just let  me  I scream

Just let  me  I cry

Just let  me  I plea

 

I can’t breathe the second before

I pass out

I won’t open my mouth until it feels

Like my head its exploding within

 

You don't seem to care

 how much i love you

You have no idea after you reject me

All the twisted things that pop up in my head

Do you know what i can do with my hands

 

Oh well, whatever you don’t seem to care

 

It all becomes an instinct not to let the water get in

I  start to become pale

And my eyes become bloodshot

 

I started to question

Where did my feelings go

When did i become so numb

 

You did this do me, you did

What did you do?

I don’t remember but i remember

How it felt

 

It a race for life but im number 35

Last place about to blow up in flames

Oh wait that was yesterday you were too late

45,000 people die every year because

Somebody cared but not enough

Bet you can;t even imagine what it’s like

To feel so isolated until it happens to you

Paralyzed meters down from the surface

 

Becoming so cold

A shadow of a girl i used to know

Where did she go she must of left

I know i should stay but i don’t know why

Just like i don’t know why this pain

Is spreading like a cancer

 

No, i'm not a copycat

This is not a string

Its not my fault

Im lost, im sad, im angry, i'm scared, i feel

Alone

 

Just a shape

Nothing inside

Wish he cared but he didn’t now 

Everybody doesn’t and i'm sorry

But the only thing i cared for

Isnt here anymore

And everything else is covered in tar

Its like rejection killed everything

   

This poem is about: 
Me

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