Before recovery, when ED talked i listened. HE said i was lazy, i ran. HE said i was fat, i dieted. HE said i ate to much, i starved. HE told me to purge, i vomited. When ED was with me i cried. HE said i was worthless, fat, ugly, and unloveable. HE made me hate myslef. When ED controlled me i became less. i weighted less, and thought less of myslef. i was nothing, a nobody without ED. Now, when ed talks I ignore him when ed tries to be with ME again I keep him out. when ed tries to controll ME I stay strong. I do not let ed, MY eating disorder run MY life. I'M doing what I need to do for ME. recovery.