Is this really worth it ?
Thoughts run wild
Is this normal I’m still a child
It’s constant
It’s never ending
It’s utterly excruciating
Thoughts of suicide
Fill my mind
Should I stay
Or should I just give up
See I don’t know
I don’t know if this is worth it
All this just to feel smaller
Smaller in a world where I don’t want to be
My parents wouldn’t even believe that this is me
All this just to be told that I’m not even sick
Well then try being me
Maybe then people would stop taking the mick
Is this really worth it
Maybe deep down I know this is not me
But for now this is all I can be
See I want to stop
Not for you
Or anyone
Or even me
I want this to stop
So I can finally be free
Oh I long to be freed
Free like a bird gliding through the sky
Without a care for anything
Oh boy how amazing being a bird would be
For now my wing is clipped
Maybe this is just a blip
A long exhausting
What feels like a never ending dip
See I think I long to be a bird
For that scale to say a number
That’s a light as that feather
I watch fall from the bird
The bird that I wish would just b me
Is this worth it
Why can’t u see
This is slowly killing me
Is this worth it
Is it just me
Who needs it to feel that bit more free
Just to escape
One more time
Oh what would I do to become that bird
I’ll always feel third
Never enough and certainly never like the old me