Is this really worth it ?

Sun, 04/17/2022 - 17:18 -- C9

Thoughts run wild 

Is this normal I’m still a child

It’s constant 

It’s never ending 

It’s utterly excruciating 

Thoughts of suicide 

Fill my mind 

Should I stay 

Or should I just give up 

See I don’t know 

I don’t know if this is worth it 

All this just to feel smaller

Smaller in a world where I don’t want to be

My parents wouldn’t even believe that this is me 

All this just to be told that I’m not even sick 

Well then try being me 

Maybe then people would stop taking the mick 

Is this really worth it 

Maybe deep down I know this is not me 

But for now this is all I can be 

See I want to stop 

Not for you 

Or anyone 

Or even me

I want this to stop 

So I can finally be free 

Oh I long to be freed

Free like a bird gliding through the sky 

Without a care for anything 

Oh boy how amazing being a bird would be 

For now my wing is clipped 

Maybe this is just a blip

A long exhausting 

What feels like a never ending dip

 See I think I long to be a bird 

For that scale to say a number 

That’s a light as that feather 

I watch fall from the bird 

The bird that I wish would just b me 

Is this worth it 

Why can’t u see

This is slowly killing me 

Is this worth it 

Is it just me 

Who needs it to feel that bit more free 

Just to escape 

One more time 

Oh what would I do to become that bird

I’ll always feel third 

Never enough and certainly never like the old me

Comments

Iruma J

You should write this as a song 

 

C9

Yeh I was thinking this but idk with what back track like how do I turn this into one x 

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