09/18/2019

11:28

WHY ARE YOU COMING BACK LIKE I’M SUPPOSED TO CARE

it dont hurt

like the hurt i felt when you first did it

and i remember that first poem

“and i just need sometime, to clear you out if i can’t clear my mind”

AND I CANT

because 

something in my heart hurts

not for a person

i dont about ya’ll no more

i’m playing the systems

i’m playing the hearts

he left me on read twice

maybe i got to close and this is a warning

why you slide in

wyd?

WHAT WERE YOU DOING ALL THEM MONTHS

i think it’s easier for me that you came back now

but at the same time it aint easy

because here i am

writing a poem again

spilling out my heart again

the good thing i learned

from my own words

is that my words 

dry my  tears

not you

not your stupid apologize

i’m glad my heart doesn’t flutter anymore

i even wish i hadn’t let him in that close

i wished that a few days ago,

maybe last week

but right now,

right now

i don’t even care.

let him leave

i don’t want a relationship

i don’t want responsiblility for another heart

WHEN I CANT EVEN TAKE CARE OF MY OWN

and this is for the homework i’m supposed  to be doing

and this is for “clear my mind” that’s on repeat in the background

and why was my brain singing the lyrics before you came in?

and why i still have you added ?

 

YOU JUST BROKE IT AGAIN

why so soft

why soft words 

i hate people

i don’t know

i did this too myself

it’s tooo much

i’m playing the system by playing myself

because at the end of the day i have no one to turn to

the two closest to me don’t listen

she barely answers and others don’t truly care

why can’t i just get what i give for once 

just for once

maybe my heart wouldn’t bleed so much

just for once...