Please Forgive Me

Thu, 05/30/2019 - 01:20 -- K.A.I

We buried you in Evergreen cemetery

On October 15, 2010

 

Block double zero three A

 

Your headstone read

Matthew Medina Jr.  

Beloved husband, father, son and brother

 

August 29, 1988

 

To

 

September 5, 2010

 

Your favorite color was royal blue

And you loved pepperoni pizza

 

You would play the same Scooby doo movie on repeat

Just to see me smile

 

You did my hair every morning before school

Because mom was always running late

 

You made dinner for me and the boys

When dad was gone and mom was working

 

You loved kit kats

And cheesy romance movies

 

You would stay up late with Trevor when he got sick

And help Ryan study every night for his entrance exam

You were on the sidelines of every single one of Jared's football games

And always got me to cheer practice on time  

 

It’s been 3,285 days

Nine years

 

You have missed a lot

Jared is getting married in July

Trevor in August

 

I graduated high school

I made it, just like you said I would

 

I leave for basic in September

And Ryan went back to school

 

Dad is doing his dream job

And Mom, is finally starting to smile again

 

Alex turns seven this year

He looks just like you

Goofy smile and all  

 

You were twenty two years old

When you died

 

It’s hard to think that your not here

Some days are harder than others

 

Sometimes I just really need you

I need you to tell me that it’s all going to be okay

 

The day you died

I didn’t quite understand

I was only nine

 

When your a kid no one ever tells you the full story

No one ever tells you what really happened

 

I was thirteen when I actually found out how you died

 

I’m sorry that I never noticed it before

 

You did everything for everyone

But what did we do for you?

 

I was never angry

At anyone but myself

 

I’m sorry that I didn’t hug you one more time

And I’m sorry that I didn’t say ‘I love you’ one more time

 

I’m sorry that I took your love for granite

 

I miss you so much Matt

And please forgive me for not saying goodbye

When you walked out that front door  

This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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