some words i wish i could take back
moments i’d do anything to relive,
ask for for answers i never received.
what do i do?
this feeling of being constricted between recollections
brings nothing but pain and anger
it feels like being neck-deep in water
somewhere between drowning and gasping for air.
you got my heart on a string like a pendulum, swinging from extreme to extreme
some days your name sounds like heaven’s blessing, it makes my heart flutter like the first snow
some days like a curse, your name drips bitterly from my tongue
you tempted my foolish heart and dragged me under
i’m drowning, but you’re not coming to save me
now, as i sit, i bury your love in a secret place where it hides and curls up in distress
with my heart filled with stones where hope used to lie.