You were supposed to be full of love,
and there for me whenever I needed you.
If I had a monster under my bed,
you were supposed to be my knight in shining armour.
But instead you were the monster,
the reason why I cower in my room under the covers.
You were supposed to be loving and kind,
but you were full of hate and anger.
You made me scared to come out of my room,
so I learned to love the four walls that surrounded me.
I was torn down at every angle.
No matter where I turned you were there,
ready to spew your words of hate.
You made me learn to never trust anyone,
because at any given moment they could fail me too.
Love to me is ruined,
all because of you.
I have been lied to and crushed,
never learning who I could trust.
But I wont let you ruin my future,
I have learned to do it without you.
And I will make sure to love my future kids,
the way you never loved me.
They will never know the demons I had to go through,
because I will never hurt them the way you did to me.
I will always be the bigger person,
full of love even though you never showed me it.
So here I am going through a big step in my life,
and you are no where to be seen.
But I am perfectly fine with it,
because you were never there for me to begin with.