Is it called suicidal if it’s not
right this minute that you want to die?
I have a lot to look forward to.
It’s just that, sometimes, I don’t particularly
like the idea of living to become an adult.
See, I laugh. A lot.
Many things are funny.
But I am also in that fragile state
where I burst into tears
upon seeing a condom on the ground,
and I don’t think that’s healthy.
And, you see, sometimes I’ve fantasised
About what my note would look like, and
The methods I would use. But not yet.
I have happy things in my life now,
It’s funny how most people die to
Escape the past, if not the present.
But I have a funny feeling that, at some point,
I’ll die to escape the future.
I’ll see you in
A few years.
Wait for me.