The Painting She Will Never See: A Goodbye to My Aunt
She lies on a colorless bed, remaining silent
Her chest rises and falls softly, the rest of her body motionless
Strange, bulky machines occasionally beep, randomly stirring the silence
So young, so innocent
She almost makes the surrounding world appear greedy
Women her age despise their hair if they find a single silver strand, she has no hair
They complain that they aren’t as energetic as they once were, by the grace of God she might gather enough to say her final goodbyes
Seeing her tortured and practically eaten alive by this cancer, it is bittersweet seeing her unconscious in a coma, now unable to feel the pain
Her husband, family, and friends gather by her bedside to watch her lie unmoving
Not a word is spoken, not a smile is revealed
Nothing is left to do but hope and pray
Mother nudges me towards the deathbed, and tells me to say goodbye, just in case this would prove to be our last visit
It is hard for me, an eleven year old, to even consider losing her, but I seize my last opportunity, swallowing hard
Mother quietly shoos everyone out of the room as I ponder what I should say
Leaning towards her, I whisper my love and final adieu, carefully choosing my parting words as salty tears begin to kiss my cheek
The moments seem everlasting when my family finally returns to the room
I hand my uncle, now a zombie of a man, my painting, hoping to bring a smile to his blank face
His eyes skim the pallet, admiring the vibrant colors of my sunset
At last, his voice breaks the ongoing quiet to show his thanks
He almost adds a ring to the end of his sentences; as if hopeful she will one day enjoy the sight too
We all say our goodbyes and wish her luck
Stealing a final glimpse of my doomed loved one, I cannot help but notice how pretty she truly is
Despite the wires, tubes, and grey surroundings, her peaceful complexion and permanent slight smile will forever be more beautiful than any model or cover girl
Turning back to the somber hallway, my youthful mind gets the best of me and gives me a false sense of optimism
Little did I know that my painting will never be seen by her gentle blue eyes