In his absence I became more evil,
In his presence I'm in pain.
Which of the two is more lethal?
I can't think of what I can sustain.
He is my safety pin,
That controls the bomb who about to explode.
Caress my thoughts and emotions,
Enlightens me in my every actions and words.
He calms the monster inside me,
Careful not to awaken it.
Slowly transforming me,
Without him knowing it.
Unrequited love is a curse,
Especially if it's like your routine.
The more you drink into it,
The more poisonous it is within.
Confused where to go-
Continue fighting? Or let him go?
As I write this exit letter,
Convincing myself that evil is in my nature,
That I deserve more better than pain,
That laughing is the greatest medicine.
Tell me I'm cruel, I don't care!
No one can understand a pained evil.